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SUDDENLY
Posted August 15, 2012 by MZMUSE
"a Woman of few words Smile"

I COULD WRITE VOLUMES.... I HAVE WRITTEN VOLUMES... YET, UNLESS YOU PURELY SEEK FINANCIAL PROFITS... THERE'S NO REAL POINT TO IT.



SO, SUDDENLY IT OCCURRED TO ME NOT LONG AGO, THE REASON WE SPEAK, TYPE OR WRITE... IS BECAUSE WE ARE TOO FRIGHTENED TO GET ANY CLOSER...

THINK ABOUT IT.... WHEN CAVE PEOPLE FIRST MET... BEFORE THE FIRST ARTIST ATTEMPTED TO COMMUNICATE, WITH PICTURES; IN THE DIRT OR ON A STONEWALL... WE ONLY COMMUNICATED THROUGH TOUCH... LONG BEFORE WE COULD MAKE WORDS FROM OUR MOUTHS... WE COMMUNICATED THROUGH TOUCH & BODY LANGUAGE, ALONE... JUST AS THE MORE JOVIAL ANIMALS STILL DO TODAY; ALL THE TIME... ONLY WHEN GIVING NOTICE OF A BESTIAL ENEMY... DO THEY VOICE WARNING...

SO, WHY IS IT TODAY; WE GET FURTHER & FURTHER AWAY... FROM OUR OWN TRUTH. WE ARE BUILT TO BE TACTILE CREATURES... NOT DRIVEN BY HARSH SOUNDS AGAINST YOUR EAR... WORDS UPON THE PAGE NOR FLASHES OF LIGHT, UP ON A SCREEN.

SINcerely,

MzMuse
MZMUSE
UNDER A PERFECT MOON
Posted August 4, 2012 by MZMUSE
THERE WAS A GORGEOUS GOLDEN MOON LAST NIGHT...

SO, FULL & PERFECTLY ROUND...

IT REMINDED ME OF A PRICELESS PEARL ON A CLOUDLESS SEA OF BLUE...

OF COURSE, I LIVE FAR ENOUGH FROM THE CITY LIGHTS TO STILL ENJOY A STARLIT SKY...

EVEN WITHOUT AN ESCORT... SUCH A PERFECT LOVER'S MOON...

SOMETHING TO BEHOLD & APPRECIATE ADRIFT A CALM LAKE...

SNUGGLED WITH YOUR Lady IN A BOAT MADE FOR TWO...

WONDERING; HOW SO MANY GLIDE THROUGH LIFE...PAIN-FREE & BLINDED

TO SUCH BEAUTY...INSTEAD, I STAND ALONE... UNDER A PERFECT MOON...

ETERNALLY GRATEFUL, I'M NOT: DEAF, DUMB & BLIND, AS WELL AS CRIPPLED.


hello sensual and hot MzMuse2u ;

Collarme team send me yesterday one private mail.. thanks for add me to your Admirers profile list..,( Users who have added you to their favorites list)
if you want to know me better or perhaps.., you are in active seeeking of love for you ,switch, submissive, dominant..,or perhaps a LTR , long term relationship for your heart and intimate feelings..,please, say me
at your feet and high boots..with sensual kisses , love, smiles and adoration to you.
Have a nice day.
With my best wishes.

IF I WEREN'T ACTIVELY SEARCHING... I'D NOT BE HERE.

ACTUALLY, I WAS ATTRACTED BY THE ART YOU'VE CHOSEN TO DISPLAY.

NAMIO... HE IS MY FAVORITE EROTIC ARTIST... SOMETIMES; I THINK HE SOMEHOW GOT A GOOD LOOK AT MY BARE BACKSIDE... BECAUSE HE DRAWS IT SO PERFECTLY EVERY TIME... I LOVE ALL THE CURVES & THE EXQUISITE LOOKS UPON THEIR FACES...

"Dear sensual,hot and pretty MzMuse2u
Nice to meet you. Your profile and wishes..,are very large.. And Cartoons very nice.
But say me..,What do you need and do you seek in collarme.com web site ?
Don,t worry,and be happy !!! I don,t want any money for you. But your love , your pleasure , your smiles and your satisfaction of hot woman .., yes..,of course. Uhhmmmmmmmm...!
I am here to satisfy all your love, sensual and erotic dreams.
Would you like to seduce me lovingly, intimately?
Would you like to kiss and having me between your arms?
Are you one very hot submissive/ Dominant and horny woman who wants to love and to be loved?
What Do you think about how to have me very warm and special for you? Perhaps love, pleasure, fondness, tenderness
for your heart and smiles ...?
I like the intimate relations of love and long time duration for you, LTR, a long term relationship with good feeling and your seduction... For many years...Do you wish it? Perhaps.., As honeymoon.
Do you seek a future marriage perhaps, or living and sleeping together.. ?

only initial erotic penpal friendship perhaps..?
Sweet and hot kisses , a very warm hug and hot caresses with my lips and loving tongue and with afecttion,love,tenderness,endearment for you..,in your lips, in your neck, in your mouth, with sensibility and fondness in your tongue , in your shoulders, in your bellybutton, in all your skin, in your breasts, with sensibility and tenderness for you with kisses in all your body, with love and pleasure for your woman's heart
Sincerely yours,

more cartoons for your heart wishes..
sweet kisses in your sensual lips
with one smile in your pretty eyes"

IF YOU WANT TO KNOW MORE OF ME... MAKE GOOD USE OF MY PROFILE, PORTRAITS & PROSE... BECAUSE, THE LAST THING I NEED IS ANOTHER FACELESS FREELOADER WASTING MY PRECIOUS TIME...on-line...OR, ANYWHERE FOR THAT MATTER.

I NEED GENUINE COMPANIONS, WHO CARE ENOUGH TO INSURE MY WELL-BEING... WHETHER WE LIVE TOGETHER...OR NOT.

A TRUE GENTLEMAN...ALWAYS SEES TO A LADY'S COMFORT & CARE.

THAT IS MY ONLY DESIRE... TO BE: HAPPY, HEALTHY, WEALTHY & WISE.

BUT, SUCH BLISS CAN NEVER BE ATTAINED ALONE... HOWEVER, I DO NOT EXPECT ONE SOLITARY SOUL COULD EVER GENERATE THE PROPER ATMOSPHERE... NOR ADORATION FOR A WOMAN IN MY CONDITION... WHICH IS WHY; I SEEK MUTUALLY ATTRACTIVE & CHARMINGLY COMPATIBLE SOUL MATES... OF EVERY VARIETY... AS LONG AS, THEY REMAIN SINCERE...CHARISMATIC, CANDID, PLEASURABLY POSITIVE, ROMANTICALLY RELIABLE...GRACIOUSLY GENEROUS, WITH ME & DELIRIOUSLY DEVOTED TO MY CARE. HOWEVER, YOUR HEART &TALENTS MIGHT LEAD YOU...WHETHER BY STARTING A CORSET FUND FOR ME... OR SOMEHOW ATTAINING THE INVERSION BOARD, WHICH WAS MEDICALLY PRESCRIBED FOR ME; AGES AGO... I DON'T CARE; WHO PAYS FOR IT. AND, IF SAINT NICHOLAS IN HIS INFINITE MERCY...WERE TO MIRACULOUSLY HAVE ALL MY NEEDS MET & AWAITING ME, UPON MY FRONT PORCH TOMORROW... I'D SIMPLY GIVE A SILENT PRAYER OF GRATITUDE... BUT, I'D NEVER SCRUTINIZE SUCH A MIRACLE...NOR, IDIOTICALLY REJECT SUCH PRECIOUS GIFTS... REGARDLESS OF; HOW THEY CAME TO ME... THIS IS MY ATTITUDE IN ALL THINGS... ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER, THAN mere words ever will.

SINcerely,

MZ.MA.MUSE

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IF YOU TRULY CARE FOR ME... YOU WILL MAKE THE MOST OF MY PROFILE & MY JOURNAL.

STUDY THEM CAREFULLY; ESPECIALLY, IF ENGLISH ISN'T YOUR PRIMARY LANGUAGE.

IN SHORT... I NEED SENSUAL SPOILS TO EASE MY CHRONIC PAINS... BUT, ONLY THE MOST DEDICATED PEOPLE WILL SUFFICE... JUST AS WITH MY CUSTOM HANDMADE CORSETS... I'VE WASTED MY OWN MONEY TRYING TO FIND A READY MADE CORSET TO HELP MY PHYSICAL & FETISHISTIC NEEDS... NOW, I HAVEN'T THE FUNDS TO HAVE PROPER ONES MADE FROM A SERIOUS SPECIALIST...IT TOOK YEARS TO FIND... http://www.contourcorsets.com/

http://www.amazon.com/Health-Mark-Inversion-Therap...

THE SAME FOR THE INVERSION BOARD... IN FACT, THE ONLY THINGS AL MY DOCTORS AGREE UPON ARE... THE INVERSION BOARD... MY MEDICAL MARIJUANA, CUSTOM CORSETS, MULTIPLE ORGASMS, SWIMMING EXERCISES, HOT SALT BATHS & PLENTY OF TRUSTWORTHY COMPANIONS TO ASSIST ME = 24/7

Health Mark Pro Max Inversion Therapy Table~*~*~*~

You have a STUNNING profile!

YOUR SKIRT IS A BIT OF A SHOWSTOPPER, AS WELL...

KILT...YES, I KNOW.

BUT, ME RED HAIRED GRANNY ALWAYS SAID; YOU COULD KID A SCOTSMAN...BOUT HIS KILT... BUT, NEVER HIS KINSMEN."

BTW, MACKENZIE... WOOD NA BE A FAMILIAR FAMILY NAME?

ASKED THE GREEN EYED AUBURN HAIRED LASS, WITH THE WEIRD ACCENT.

Wink ...ACTUALLY, I'M THE ONLY ONE IN MY FAMILY, THAT KEPT OUR SCOTCH/IRISH COLORING & THE GERMAN BUILD... THE REST TOOK OUR NATIVE LOOK... DARK SKIN...BLACK HAIR... HAIRLESS BODIES... I SWEAR NOT 3 CHEST HAIRS AMONG ALL THE MEN & I'M TALLER, THAN MOST OF THEM.

BUT, THE BIGGEST PART, THAT MAKES ME REGRET LOOSING OUR FAMILY HERITAGE... WE'VE LOST OUR OVERALL IDENTITY... BUT, EVERY IMMIGRANT WAS BRAINWASHED INTO CHANGING OUR TRUE NAMES... FOR "ELLIS ISLAND DREAMS".

SO, MUCH SO... THAT ELLIS... IS NOW A FAMILY NAME... ALONG WITH EVERY SPELLING VARIATION OF: RAYE, WRAY, RAE, RAY... AS WELL AS: HARDEN, HARDIN, HARDYN...etc. ANYWAY... AMONG MY MANY FETISHISTIC QUIRKS... VOCAL ACCENTS & FOREIGN LANGUAGES MAKE ME WET... QUITE LITERALLY... SOMETHING AKIN TO JLC... IN "A FISH CALLED WANDA"... ALTHOUGH, UNLIKE THE MOVIES; I CAN'T CLIMAX, WITH MERELY A SHORT PHRASE... IT HAS TO BE THE RIGHT TONE OF VOICE... AN ATTRACTIVE DIALECT... AND A SILK BLINDFOLD... MAYBE EVEN THE ROPES... BUT, YES... I'VE HAPPILY EXPERIENCE COUNTLESS ORGASMS FROM MERELY HAVING, JUST THE RIGHT MAN; WHISPER "SWEET-NOTHINGS"...IN MY EAR.


It's only a skirt if you wear panties!

Both of my parents are Irish but I was raised in Scotland. Therefore my accent is rather like Sean Connery meets Liam Neeson.


SO, SINCE I NEVER WEAR PANTIES... SKIRT OR KILT?

Smile

MY PEOPLE ARE FROM BOTH SIDES OF THE POND, AS WELL... IN FACT, WE NEVER KNEW WHETHER GRANNY WAS MOSTLY IRISH OR SCOTTISH... NO CATHOLICS...THAT'S FOR SURE... BUT, WE DO HAVE A FEW BRITS, ONE CHEROKEE & THE REST ARE PRE-20th CENTURY GERMAN/BAVARIAN.

MEANWHILE, I'M A SENSUAL SOUTHERN BELLE LIVING IN BLUE COLLAR CANADA... SURROUNDED BY BEER SWILLN' HOCKEY FANATICS...


I CAN'T HELP THINKIN' I'M IN THE WRONG PLACE... BUT, I'VE CIRCLED THE GLOBE SEARCHING... AND, THERE IS NO ONE ELSE LIKE ME... JUST AS ABSENT ... IS THE IMPERATIVE SPARK... INSTEAD, I SIMPLY FEEL AS THOUGH I'M REPEATING MYSELF... WITH NO REAL VALIDATION NOR WELL EARNED REWARD...FOR SO MUCH BACK BREAKING EFFORT.

BUT, THERE IS NO WHERE ELSE TO SEEK; MY COMPATIBLE COUNTERPARTS.
HOPE YOUR EXPERIENCES ARE MUCH MORE FRUITFUL, THAN MY OWN.

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I'D STILL RATHER BE ALONE... FREE TO BE ME...

rather than being tortured by greedy gluttonous greasy-grabby lil'idiots

too selfish & brainwashed to REALLY APPRECIATE ME & MY TALENTS...

SINcerely,

MZ.M.

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:O

APPARENTLY, I'M JUST TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE...

ACCORDING TO A MASTERFUL FRIEND OF MINE... REPEATEDLY PROCLAIMED, WITH THAT RAKISH SMILE ON HIS ARROGANT LIPS...

EITHER WAY, THAT DECLARATION DOESN'T REALLY HELP ME, AT ALL...

NOT WHEN I KNOW HE'S SAYING IT...OUT OF SHEER JOY, FOR THE FACT, THAT MEANS... HE GETS TO REGULARLY BE THE ONLY ONE I CAN CALL TO GIVE ME THE TWO HOUR BATH; I SO CHERISH... WITHOUT HIM, I CAN HARDLY WASH MY HAIR... HALF WAY DOWN MY BACK & 1O POUNDS HEAVY SOAK N WET...

YES, I COULD CUT IT...AND, I DO KEEP IT TRIMMED... BUT, I LIKE MY HAIR LONG...

JUST AS MUCH AS I PREFER TWO HOUR BATHS, OVER A TWO MINUTE SHOWER.

BUT, LIKE HE SAID... FEW GENTLEMEN: TOP, BOTTOM, SUB OR SLAVE...

VERY FEW LOVERS WILL EVER OFFER THE GENUINE CARE & ATTENTION, I CONSISTENTLY REQUIRE... they all love to toss around a truckload of empty promises though... IF I ONLY HAD MY VERY OWN CUSTOM CORSETS... FOR EVERY ONE, THAT WAS PROMISED TO ME, BY selfish lil'boys lookin' to get under MY SKIRT & INTO MY SHIRT... I'D HAVE A DIFFERENT CORSET FOR EVERYDAY....THE REST OF MY LIFE... I'D ALSO HAVE MY JACUZZI & MY TOP-LINE INVERSION TABLE; THRICE OVER... INSTEAD, I HAVE NINE YEARS CELIBACY & MY SELF-RESPECT INTACT.

BUT, I DIDN'T SEE NOR HEAR HIM COMPLAININ'... IN FACT, HE LEARNED QUITE A FEW NEW TRICKS FROM ME TODAY...

GOOD THING; WE NEVER WASTE TIME, OVER IDIOTIC LABELS... OF COURSE, HE KNOWS I'LL REFUSE HIS BATH-TIME ASSISTANCE;

IF HE EVEN ATTEMPTS TO BE CONDESCENDING OR DOMINANT, WITH ME...

JUST AS I WOULD NEVER ATTEMPT TO ORDER HIM ABOUT...

LIKE HE DOES, WITH HIS SUBMISSIVES.

BUT, THAT STILL DOESN'T SOLVE THE RIDICULOUS DOUBTS & EXCUSES PEOPLE METHODICALLY USE TO SELFISHLY WASTE MY TIME.

WELL, I MAY BE TOO GOOD TO BE READILY BELIEVED BY: fakers, frauds & freeloaders; those poisonous PEOPLE TOO IGNORANT & SELFISH FOR ME TO ABIDE...

BESIDES, IF THEY DON'T KNOW; HOW LUCKY THEY REALLY ARE FOR THE PRIVILEGE & PLEASURE OF MY COMPANY, AS WELL AS MY KNOWLEDGEABLE EXPERTISE...

THEN, I DO NOT CARE TO WASTE MY TIME...TRYING TO CONVINCE ANYONE ...ESPECIALLY, those TOO LAZY & BLIND TO ACKNOWLEDGE MY MANY EFFORTS.

I NEED NO MORE HASSLES NOR HEARTACHES... NO MATTER THE EXCUSE NOR LABEL...

I'LL CRAWL TO THE TUB ALONE & WASTE TEN HOURS FAILING TO BATHE MYSELF...

LONG BEFORE, I'LL EVER STOOP TO JUSTIFY MY LIFE TO: hypocrites, haters & players... ESPECIALLY, WHEN THEY'RE TOO FOOLISH TO TELL MY PAINSTAKING REALITY,FROM the rest of the talentless money grubbin': liars, phonies & freeloadin' fakes.

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III

"wonderful pictures my dear"

I DO MY BEST...

What a very very pleasing thought, it is lifechanging when a beautiful girl does her best to give you everything

YES... & VISA/VERSA... BUT, ONLY IF THE BOY LOVINGLY & RESPECTFULLY...

RECIPROCATES...IN TURN. OTHERWISE ONE ALWAYS GIVES TOO MUCH...

WHILE THE OTHER HABITUALLY EARNS & GIVES TOO little, IN RETURN...

UNTIL THE RIVER RUNS DRY & DIES...

ALONG WITH EVERY LIVING THING, THAT DEPENDED,

UPON SUCH NECESSARY RESOURCES.

SO, WHITHER & DIE...

THE ROSE DEAD ON THE VINE,

BECAUSE EVERYBODY FOUGHT TO KEEP THE GORGEOUS FLOWER FOR THEMSELVES...

NEVER THINKING TO KEEP THE BRAIRBUSH ALIVE...

IT WILL PRODUCE BIGGER & BETTER; EVEN MORE BEAUTIFUL BLOOMS...

SOMEDAY...

BUT, ONLY IF THE BRIARBUSH IS TENDED, WATERED, SHELTERED FROM BAD WEATHER...

KEPT IN GOOD SOIL & FREE OF PESTS & BLIGHT...

BUT, WITHOUT THE PROPER CARE... BEAUTY DIES...

A SLOW & MERCILESS DEATH; UNWANTED, UNTOUCHED & UNNOTICED...

EVEN AWARD WINNING ROSE BUSHES ARE TOMORROWS COMPOST.

SO, HOPEFULLY... ANY "LIFECHANGING" EVENTS

WILL PROVE TO BE HAPPY & HEALTHY ONES...

FOR BOTH OF US...

rather that proving to be another poisoned pen letter from haters,

who love to see such misery & suffering...

ESPECIALLY FROM THIS SCHADENFREUDE MAIDEN.

"I peeked in the door as I browsed my way through this erotic but somewhat frustrating site... Looking to meet someone real and that has proven difficult here so far. Wish you were closer to west coast US."

WISHES WON'T GET ME ANYWHERE

& IT DEFINITELY WON'T HELP TO HEAL ME, EITHER.

MEANWHILE, YOU MAY BE GOOD-LOOKING "EYECANDY", WITH A KILLER SMILE... BUT, I'D RATHER BE CONTACTED BY REAL MEN, WHO DON'T GIVE NOR TAKE excuses.

FRANKLY, I'D BE ECSTATIC TO FIND MY COMPATIBLE COUNTERPART; NO MATTER THE PLANETS LOCATION...BUT, IF HE IMMEDIATELY UTTERED ANYTHING LIKE "wish you were closer"... KNOWING; I'M penniless & PARTIALLY HANDICAP... that's worse, than insulting to ME... NO, HE'S JUST TOO LAZY TO MEET ME... I IMMEDIATELY KNOW... IF IT'S NOT ONE SAD BAD sorry & selfish excuse; IT'S ALWAYS ANOTHER...

YOU MUST EARN THE PRIVILEGE TO BE, WITH THIS LADY... AND WORK TO KEEP MY FAITH; EVERY MOMENT... but, whining like a baby; too scared to take a car ride or a vacation... then you deserve to waste your life, with web-fakers... you're too much of a whiner & quitter to EVER BE OF ANY REAL USE TO ME OR YOURSELF...NOT IN MY 24/7 REAL BDSM RELATIONSHIPS... I DO NOT BELIEVE YOU COULD WILLINGLY EARN YOUR PLACE AT MY SIDE NOR UNDER MY BOOT-HEEL, EITHER. ... EVEN IF I LIVED NEXT DOOR.... YOU'D MESS IT UP; FROM ANY DISTANCE.... with the poor attitude you currently cling too.

MZ.M.

MEANWHILE, I'D RATHER POOR ALL MY ENERGY INTO REAL WORLD...PLEASURABLY PHYSICAL... CHARISMATICALLY CLEVER, & COMPATIBLE COMPANIONS...NO MATTER; HOW FAR APART, WE MAY BE GEOGRAPHICALLY... IT'S TRUE CHARACTER, CHARM & COMPATIBILITY, THAT MOVES ME TO STILL BELIEVE IN LOVE... EVEN, WHEN; I KNOW ALL THE ODDS ARE AGAINST ME... I'LL NEVER SETTLE FOR A TREACHEROUS, COWARD, NOR ANOTHER NEUROTIC ABUSER, EITHER.

CHISELERS, PAUPERS, GIGOLOS, BUMS...AND ALL THE OTHER CRETINOUS CREATURES... LOOKING FOR A FREE RIDE... OR PUNCHING BAG... you are NOT WELCOMED HERE & NEVER WILL BE,

REAL LOVE WON'T BE DENIED NOR REASONED AWAY...REGARDLESS OF THE HARDSHIPS FOUGHT NOR THE TERROR ENDURED... WITH TRUE LOVE WAITING FOR YOU TO RETURN TO MY ARMS... NEITHER, HEAVEN, HELL NOR DEATH; ITSELF COULD KEEP ME FROM MY BELOVED... NOT; IF, I KNEW; ...HAVING ACTUALLY HAD PROOF...PHYSICAL AFFIRMATION OF OUR UNDENIABLE CHEMISTRY...HIS TRUE CHARACTER, TEMPERAMENT... HONORABLE INTENTIONS; TO KNOW FOR ABSOLUTE, THAT HE EXISTS... AND, THE SENSUAL INTEREST BETWEEN US IS BLESSEDLY MUTUAL ; AS WELL AS BEING INDESCRIBABLY HOT... LIKE SPONTANEOUS COMBUSTION... EVEN THE AIR STARTS TO CRACKLE, WITH ELECTRIFYING CURRENTS... PULSING BETWEEN US, AT THE MERE PROSPECT OF ALLOWING OUR LUST TO FUEL&FUSE US; MELTING ONE TO ANOTHER...

YA JUST GOTTA LOVE A TANTRA TEACHER LIKE ME... IF I HONESTLY KNEW HOW TO MAKE CONTACT; WITH MY LONG LOST SOUL-MATE. I'D NEVER BLOW HIM OFF, WITH tricks, traps, lies & excuses. FIRST, I HAVEN'T THE TIME NOR ENERGY. WOULDN'T WASTE THEM, EVEN WITH PLENTY TO SPARE... I BELIEVE IN CHIVALRY... MEN DO THE FIGHTING... THEY SHOULD ALSO DO THE DEFENDING... A REAL MAN KNOWS; HOW TO PROVIDE WELL FOR HIS LOVED ONES... AS HE SHOULD... HE ALSO NEVER FAILS TO PROTECT... BE THE FOE A BAD NEIGHBOR, BURGLAR, RAPIST OR MERELY THE DREADFUL MOTHER IN LAW... A REAL MAN NEVER SCRUTINIZES A LADY; CERTAINLY NEVER IN FRONT OF OTHERS... ONLY A SPINELESS COWARD HIDES BEHIND FRAUDULENT PHOTOS & LITERARY ANONYMITY... BUT, IT TAKES TRUE COURAGE TO FACE UP TO MY LIFE EVERYDAY... WHICH IS WHY I WON'T HAVE ANY lazy neurotic back-stabbin cunts... TRYING REPEATEDLY TO BAN ME FROM EVERY WEBSITE IN OR OUT OF THIS SO CALLED COMMUNITY... BUT, "THE REAL THING" IS STILL HERE... WORKING HARD & WAITING FOR THE ONE, WHO UNDERSTANDS ME WITHOUT QUESTION...PROTECTS ME, INSTINCTIVELY & LOVES UNCONDITIONALLY...

ALL. THINGS CAN BE EASILY OVERCOME; IF THE BOND BETWEEN US PROVES GENUINE & RECIPROCATED. HOWEVER, BE IT 50...500...5,000 MILES, BETWEEN US... I ALWAYS FIGHT FOR THE LOVE I DESIRE... BUT, THIS CRIPPLED LADY...WOULD NEVER WASTE MY LIFE AWAY....RUNNING AFTER FALSE HOPES, EMPTY DREAMS & THEN, REPRESSING MY OWN TRUE NATURE...RESTING ON MY PIOUS LAURELS... MAKING EVERY EXCUSE, AS TO WHY; I INTENTIONALLY PUSH PEOPLE AWAY. WHEN I KNOW DEEP DOWN... THE BENEVOLENT STRANGER... PATRON, PROTECTOR & PROVIDER... THE MAN OF MY DREAMS... IS THE CULMINATION OF TOO MANY HOURS SPENT READING ROMANCE NOVELS... WRITTEN BY LOVESICK WOMEN & POETESS'... BUT, REAL MEN ARE NEVER SO ATTENTIVE, AS WOMEN MENTALLY RE-CREATE THEM, IN ORDER TO SELL MORE FANTASIES & FALSE HOPES OF EVERY FINDING A REAL GENTLEMAN & LOVER... ONE; WHO IS GENUINELY: TALENTED, CAPABLE & WILLING TO GO ANY DISTANCE TO FIND THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE... STOPPING SHORT OF NOTHIN' SAVE DEATH... TO BE TOGETHER, WITH ME...IN THE FLESH; ASAP. ANYTHING LESS RESPONSIVE... ONLY PROVES TO BE TRASH MAIL; <<

TRUE LOVE FOLLOWS ME DEVOTEDLY, WHEREVER I GO... BUT, COWARDS; TOO FRIGHTENED TO STAND UP, TO THEIR OWN SHADOW... SUCH HUMAN JELLYFISH... CAN ONLY CAUSE TROUBLE FOR EVERYONE... BUT, SINCE COLD BLOODED ANIMALS FEEL NO REMORSE NOR PITY... AN EROTICALLY EMPATHETIC WITCH LIKE ME... I MUST WITHDRAW OR DIE... LITERALLY, I'M HIGHLY ALLERGIC TO: hypocrites, HUMILIATION, lies&liars, sadists, sycophants & any other types of two-faced traitors... ESPECIALLY THOSE WHO HAVE WELL PAYING JOBS... BUT, OFFER NO ASSISTANCE TO OTHERS IN NEED. BASICALLY, THEY INTENTIONALLY EXPLOIT ME... FOR UNDESERVED ATTENTIONS... FULLY EXPECT TO BE PAID EVERY DAY THEY WORK... WHILE THIS UNEMPLOYABLE INVALID... CAN'T GET SO MUCH AS A PENNY IN RECOGNITION OF MY TALENTS... I HAVE NO SALARY TO VALIDATE MY WORK... INSTEAD, THIS PENNILESS PHILOSOPHER GETS NOTHING MORE, THAN PATHETICALLY REDUNDANT MEMOS FROM IMMATURE ADOLESCENTS... COUNTLESS NUMBERS OF SLIMY FREELOADING JELLYFISH... TOO DUMB, DEAF & BLIND TO EVER IMAGINE UTILIZING MY PORTRAITS & PROFILES... NO THAT TAKES CONSIDERABLE RESPECT FOR YOURSELF & ME... TO INTENTIONALLY TAKE ON THE RESPONSIBILITY OF HELPING ME IN THE FLESH...rather than flinging more junk mail at ME...in another absurd scheme to rob ME of any HAPPINESS; BY PEDDLING poisonous rumors & egotistical excuses... WHATEVER IT TAKES TO KEEP YOURSELF FROM BEING KIND & CHARITABLE TO THOSE OF US IN DIRE NEED. instead, do like most mass mail pity parties to everyone you know...offer ever excuse for your flaky untrustworthy countenance... be sure to use some of the very same excuses to the bank...next time the IRS SHOWS UP... you say; sorry but you live too far way...

maybe after a decade or two in LEAVENWORTH FED PEN... YOUR BULLMASTER... MIGHT NOT ASS-RAPE & BEAT YOU; EVERY DAY& NIGHT.... WITHIN AN INCH OF YOUR PATHETIC LIFE... whenever you offer another egotistical excuse for your apathetic behaviors.... then again...HE'LL probably smash your fingers & hands...cut out your lying tongue; pulverize your kneecaps... then knock out all your teeth... cause anybody this ridiculously lazy & manipulative... should spend the rest of life crawling on all fours; like the brainless beast he's proven to be... devoid of the speech he's not worthy to utter... and, without any teeth...put into a full rubber body suit... sucking cock..or golfballs through a gardenhose... being the best seat for the QUEEN'S CHAIR... THAT'S ALL you could ever ASPIRE TO BE around the house...BUT, EVEN THEN IT'S DOUBTLESS YOU'D MAKE IT, THAT FAR... you haven't the DEDICATION NOR THE IMAGINATION TO PROVE RELIABLE...MUCH LESS WORTHY OF MY HOME & MY GIFTS.

SINcerely,

MZ.M.





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~*~*~*~Health Mark Pro Max Inversion Therapy Table
MZMUSE
HEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS...
Posted July 16, 2012 by MZMUSE
VALIDATION, EMPATHY & INTIMACY... THESE ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT ASPECTS OF ANY HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP... ALONG, WITH TRUST, RESPECT & RELIABLE COMMUNICATION; BETWEEN PARTNERS... THE REST SHOULD BE BLISSFULLY PEACEFUL & EROTICALLY INVIGORATING... FOR BOTH OF US. AS FOR ME... I MUST STILL SPEND MOST OF MY TIME RECLINED; PREFERABLY IN BED... OR, IN THE SWIMMING POOL; WHEN IT'S WARM & SUNNY, SUCH AS THIS WEEK.... HOWEVER, THERE ARE STILL TIMES, WHEN WE ALL NEED A BIT OF SOCIAL SUPPORT; WHICH IS WHY I'M NOW SCHEDULING: GROUP SESSIONS, PRIVATE LESSONS, FILM CLUB, TEA PARTIES, POOL PARTIES, SLUMBER PARTIES & ANY OTHER SORT OF POSITIVE GET TOGETHERS... STRICTLY FOR CONSENTING ADULTS OF MATURE MIND & GENTLE SPIRIT. BASICALLY, I'M GATHERING GROUPS FOR SOME REAL WORLD INTERACTIONS, ON A REGULAR BASIS... BE IT ONE ON ONE...OR, OTHERWISE; WE ALL NEED HELP SOMETIMES... ~MZ.M

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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kundalini

http://biologyofkundalini.com/article.php?story=su...

Supra-sex

"Some day, after we have mastered the winds, the waves, the tides and gravity, we shall harness...the energies of love. Then, for the second time in the history of the world, man will have discovered fire." ~ Pierre Theilhard de Chardin
Both Jung and Sri Aurobindo believed that the soul is both individual and universal and that the physical and psychic exist simultaneously. Supra-sex you could say is the spiritual intercourse of the Global Brain—the communion of the overmind or Superman (Aurobindo). This communion is superluminal, nonlocal and probably involves instantaneous communication via scalar waves or sympathetic resonance. Supra-sex is a mysterious subatomic force that spans the globe. The experience of supra-sex makes it apparent to us irreverent humans that we live in a spiritual universe, an intelligent universe, far more profound than we could possibly imagine. There is nothing more powerful than the force of Supra-sex. It is the force of evolution and consciousness itself, the energy at the ground of manifestation. Future generations will know more about and honor it more deeply than us, for slowly humanity is being awakened by this evolutionary force.
The spiritual journey is driven by sex hormones, as the principle drivers to metamorphic alchemy and awakening. The urge to unite God with Goddess, and the urge to merge with a beloved runs on the same biological equipment, it is just lived at a different level of expression.

Bliss is the energy of transcendence, and when kundalini arises and the Heart opens it feels like a lover. For females it feels like a male lover, for males it feels like a female lover. For this reason it is commonly thought that the soul of each sex is the opposite gender. Hence the anima/animus of Jungian philosophy.

Spirit uses the sexual chemistry and apparatus in the metamorphic process, so that even though the mystics may not be actually engaging in sex with another human their systems are fully sexed, fully revved up and potent during the great Passion of the alchemy. If this energy is simply masturbated away or spent on gross level compulsive sex then the Great Passion will fall short of its mark. To be fully sexually potent doesn't necessarily mean one is actually engaging or even interested in sex, but that one is not repressing the full flow of Eros in the bodymind. At the mystic level supra-sex transcends, includes and amplifies normal-sex. Supra-sex is the total alchemy of transformation of which super-sex is a symptom or beneficial side effect.

Kundalini operates on the body’s sexual system to radically heightened degrees: in dreams that facilitate certain phases of the metamorphosis, in magnified sensory sensitivity, in heightened attraction or rather spiritualized attraction, higher sexual energy and sex hormone production and vastly increased levels of opening. But in fact kundalini simply uses the sexual system in the same way that it uses the nervous system, the immune systems, the endocrine system, the lymphatic system and the digestive system—to “evolve” the structures and systems of the bodymind. This process is transpersonal and related to species survival and evolution.

The transpersonal nature of the overmind or World Soul is recognized as one becomes a pawn in the hands of the Gods, with the ultimate objective of evolving and connecting the individual neurons of the Global Brain. Supra-sex transcends, includes and amplifies normal-sex.” The global brain wakes up through sexual attraction, and nothing is more wakeful and enlightening than the pull of supra-sex, and you don't even have to have sex for it to be so. It is the trickster nature of the Universe. Remember sex is not sex, it is the energy of the Universal existence…sex IS the universe...it is all the play of the charges, hemispheres, sexes and poles, and enlightenment proceeds via this cosmic intercourse of the marriage of opposites.
Union beyond all states is basically nondual intuition, or being one with the flow of Spiritual Eros. As far as action in the world goes, as long as we are an ego acting for or on the world this is still not the highest Dharma. Consider the concept of relationship AS the World—even 'sex' for worldcentric reasons. Coming from this highest ethical level then there would not be internal divisions that would prevent joint-Nirvana. This kind of relationship is perhaps the only kind of relationship that is deeply satisfying in the soul-sense, and thus fundamentally “Real.” Relationship AS the Universe.

Supra-sex is autopoietic and seems to be focused primarily on the spontaneous transpersonal evolution of consciousness itself. Because it is the most extreme experience of love and sex, we learn that human relationship is a subset of this much larger transpersonal agenda of Nature. Supra-sex cannot be described in words, for one can only know it by experience, thus I resort to Gurdjieffs idea of supra-sex to help clarify the distinction that this is something so beyond our usual concept and experience of sex that it defies both understanding and expression. There is a great piece on sex in Chapter 12 “Sex and Evolution” in Ouspensky's “A New Model of the Universe.”
Here he described the three types of sex.

Infra-sex: A non-understanding, terror and disgust of sex, arrested development or degeneration, sex abnormalities, underdeveloped sex, all perversions, either abnormal sex desires or abnormal sex abstinence, indifference to sex, exaggeration leading to inner degeneration, wastes energy. Disharmony between sex and other sides of life.

Normal-sex: Contains no danger, sex harmonizes with all other functions including emotional, intellectual and spiritual. Sex inwardly is completely justified in the normal man and this justification is based solely on the full coordination of sex with other aspects of life. Builds energy, awareness and inspires.

Supra-sex: The sex system is greatly magnified and subsumed into spiritual alchemy, such that normal sex eventually ceases. Supra-sex signifies the inner marriage or metamorphosis and is intimately tied into one’s life purpose and calling.

The Muse or Holy Spirit becomes prior to all else.

The male/female and the potential love between them is the main catalyst of the evolutionary force of: God/Goddess, Eros & Awakening. Whether the relationship actually occurs or not at the human level is irrelevant to this evolutionary force that proceeds despite us, imposing “its” will regardless. Spirit uses whatever means are necessary to break us open and force us to awaken. Alchemy between the sexes is the primary vehicle for the awakening of consciousness and the Global Brain itself. Kundalini represents a ripening and fruition of the psychosomatic life of the individual and the driver for collective awakening.

Kundalini is perfect love, that elevates all that is base and 'raises' all that is dead.

The mystical birth of humanity proceeds through the full realization of sex energy as the caldron of transformation. In Celtic lore the cauldron had three powers: inexhaustibly, regeneration, and inspiration. Of course the alchemical caldron is “The Holy Grail,” and it is by following the pure heart’s desire in search of The Grail that we undergo the journey of transfiguration. This is the central meaning of the Grail myth in preparing the way for realizing a global Camelot based on the vitues of justice, bravery and truth.

Mastery of the serpent power sustains the enchantment and regeneration of our world. While the inability to master it can be destructive. Mastery involves submission to rapture. That is, allowing ecstatic sublime currents that melt the entrenchment of the ego’s sense of separation, bringing freedom from fear and judgment, and the petty nature of resistance in general. Mastery of Kundalini is in effect mastery of the ego! Kundalini adeptness is the alchemy of individuation through the integration of ego and Self. That is the unification of the conscious and unconscious elements of the psyche and the establishment of the proper center. This inner center or cosmic consciousness is the steady state of intuitive knowledge or illuminated mind that develops from the harmonious nuclear fusion of the Tao within our very atoms. Mastery of kundalini involves dropping our resistance to this harmonious inner sacred marriage.

STAGES OF TELOPHILIA
Spiritual Relationship
The Greek prefix telo means “the end or complete” and philia is Greek for “love or loving.” Thus we can use the word telophilia to represent the highest form of relationship or the union of souls or joint alchemy. So I equate the phenomena of supra-sex with telophilia. Note these stages are the classic alchemical stages of soul development.

Another name we might call spiritual relationship is psychephilia, as psyche is both “soul” and “butterfly” in Greek and so apply reflects the metamorphic nature of soul union. These soul-relationships may not include sex but because they amplify kundalini they can be more energetically and intensely intimate and transformative than sexual relationships.

Following is an outline of the stages of soul relationship but to a certain extent all stages happen at once to varying degrees as well.

1. MEETING—Recognition, initiation, surges of energy in the head and solar plexus, enlivening of the genitals. Enlarging of ones field in relation to the other, heightening of alertness and energy level. Irresistible magnetic pull, constancy of attention and soul urge to be in each others presence.
2. QUICKENING—Spiritual acceleration, extreme heart opening, purging, purifying, nausea, awe, hope. Clearing, tidying up loose ends, nest building, talking to oneself, physical exercise to absorb tension. Alternating periods of hyperactivity (sympathetic) with heart expanding lethargy (parasympathetic).
3. RUBBERBANDING—Alternating surrender with periods of sensual indulgence as the ego tries to use and/or suppress the charge. Boundary testing, uncertainty, exploration and resolution of differences. Blowing off the cocoon through compression and expansion.
4. TOLERANCE—Bodymind gains faith, becomes stronger quieter and more peaceful. Learns to protect and allow the intense “opening” energy cycles of soul-merger. Rewiring to handle the amplified energy and kinesthetic senses.
5. SURRENDER—Attraction to spiritual intimacy as soul increasingly incarnates with the opening of the bodymind. There is a letting go of morbid thoughts and behaviors as trust develops. Eros progressively triumphs over Thanatos.
6. TRANSPARENCY—Proactive-YES AND Green-lighting Spirit. With conscious joint metamorphic alchemy there is a movement from deprivation states to co-Being. Sympathetic resonance causes the falling away of resistance and strengthens the ability to “enjoy” love.
7. SUBSTANTIATION—Maintenance of a mature equilibrium of holding the “We Space,” while still sustaining full individuation. Potent, creative, cooperative partnership

How to establish a Telophilius relationship:
First we have to talk about it for many years, then we seriously contemplate it quietly, then we start to imagine it in 3D, then we begin to become "attractive," then we manage to magnetize a perfect polar partner to us, then we enter the honeymoon and think we have found heaven on earth, then we are plunged into the hell realms to feel the full range of our self-betrayal and self-rejection, then we learn we specifically created exactly what we got, then we forgive all creation and especially ourselves, and then at last we enter a true tantric, supra-sexual, metamorphic, alchemical relationship.

“If we are going to create a more humane world, it’s important to discover how to form sustained relationships that fulfill our deepest needs and contribute to an atmosphere of caring that the culture is crying for.” Hugh Delehanty,

THE INTERACTIVE FIELD EFFECT
The Third Thing

“Health was a state of perfect subatomic communication and ill health was a state where communication breaks down. When we are ill our waves are out of sync.” 52 Lynne Mc Taggart, The Field.

By “following our bliss” as Joseph Campbell suggests we are following the ecstatic wave of Grace in which our waves are all in sync. The Ecstatic Wave is the flow between dissolution and structure, which is the natural speed of evolution without resistance. When we fall in sync in relationship the field effect is magnified, so imagine when we can do this consciously in relationship. What Grace. If anything, kundalini is an impersonal force that is trying to get us "connected." Connected both within ourselves and connected to the Cosmos—to fall in sync with the universe in a perfect state of Grace.

Removing that which gets in the way of the symphony of our joint state of Grace (being in sync) is how the container of the relationship “The Third Thing” or the field of unconditional love is preserved. And it is through this purified and substantiated field that we as a couple find a new relationship to the Universe and grace the world with our presence.

“In certain relationships, the level of profound close goodness is so great that any thing that gets in the way of that that is not pure, clear connection will feel incredibly bad to the degree that I will have to amend it or feel almost sick. My partner in this will feel it too. Our inclination is to exit the relationship, or withdraw, or become clingy, but none of those actions work except to cause further pain. The ONLY way out is THROUGH. With some other relationships I have, if things arise, it doesn't matter, because they are not obscuring this pure connection. But with this one, it is spiritually imperative that what has arisen that causes pain is dealt with. Each of us has to take extreme responsibility for our own feelings, and be brutally honest, completely open and non-defensive and able to listen in a space created purposely for the healing. When the problem is shared, the level of relief is extraordinary and it feels like a great healing has taken place, not only of the issue at hand, but of some greater older deeper issue that was triggered by the problem presented within our relationship. It feels like this indeed IS the purpose of the relationship. When these old hurts are dealt with and the air is cleared, it is as if nothing more needs to be done.
A great, huge love is felt that encompasses the whole world and we are each completely accepted "as is".” Jacqui Denomme

By the embrace of truth and through working on the blocks to harmony in our interactive field we become “As Gods” as our boundaries with the Infinite and the Eternal are dissolved.

Epistemology

Oh what sad iron clad defenses
Cripple our quivering hearts
So that we will not be broken by love
But be torn asunder from lack of loving
The Mystery see
Lets not even presume
The mind can know the least of things
Why limit the infinite
Kill what is not ours to kill
Why make small what is measureless
Hold what cannot be caught
No where to hide anyways
Soul has no prison
Lets stop the petty game
And live the truth
See what is really there
Beyond past's lies
Such luminous White
The music is champagne
In my blood

Epistemology or the theory of knowledge is the branch of philosophy that studies the nature and scope of knowledge. The term "epistemology" originated from the Greek words episteme (knowledge) and logos (account/explanation). Sophia is the highest virtue of the "contemplative" part of the soul.

Aristotle proposes the human soul has two main functions:
1. The ability to grasp “a prior knowledge”, whose virtue is theoretical wisdom (sophia).
2. The ability to grasp truths about the changeable world, whose virtue is practical wisdom.

SEEDING THE KUNDALINI...
Etymology

Kundalini means "the coiled power," a force which ordinarily rests at the base of the spine, described as being coiled there like a serpent. Awakening
When exercised into motion the kundalini rises from the base of the spine, and from there to top of the head, then merging with the crown chakra. When kundalini Shakti is perceived as a Goddess; when it rises into the head...it melds & unites itself; into the Supreme Being (Lord Shiva). Only then may the aspirant become engrossed in deep meditation and infinite bliss.<10><11> The arousing of kundalini is said by some to be the one and only way of attaining Divine Wisdom. Self-Realization is said to be equivalent to Divine Wisdom or Gnosis or what amounts to the same thing: self-knowledge.<12> The awakening of the kundalini shows itself as "awakening of inner knowledge" and brings with itself "pure joy, pure knowledge and pure love."
Unpreparedness

The kundalini can awaken; triggered by intense personal experiences such as: accidents, near death experiences, childbirth, emotional trauma, extreme mental stress, and so on. Some sources attribute awakenings to the "grace of God", or possibly to spiritual practice in past lives.

An awakening in one who is unprepared or without the assistance of a good teacher can result in an experience which has been termed as "kundalini crisis", "spiritual emergency" or "kundalini syndrome". The symptoms are said to resemble those of kundalini awakening but are experienced as unpleasant, overwhelming or out of control. Kundalini has been described as a highly creative intelligence which dwarfs our own. Kundalini awakening therefore requires surrender; it is not an energy which can be manipulated by the ego.
Physical and psychological effects

There are Physical effects of "kundalini crisis" pointing to a serious problem, rather than personal progress by positive "awakening". The following are common signs of an agitated or Blocked kundalini; such symptoms of this problem are commonly referred to as Kundalini syndrome:

Involuntary jerks, tremors, shaking, itching, tingling, and crawling sensations, especially in the arms and legs
Energy rushes or feelings of electricity circulating the body
Intense heat (sweating) or cold, especially as energy is experienced passing through the chakras
Spontaneous pranayama, asanas, mudras and bandhas
Visions or sounds at times associated with a particular chakra
Diminished or conversely extreme sexual desire sometimes leading to a state of constant or whole-body orgasm
Emotional upheavals or surfacing of unwanted and repressed feelings or thoughts with certain repressed emotions becoming dominant in the conscious mind for short or long periods of time.<18>
Headache, migraine, or pressure inside the skull
Increased blood pressure and irregular heartbeat
Emotional numbness
Antisocial tendencies
Mood swings with periods of depression or mania
Pains in different areas of the body, especially back and neck
Sensitivity to light, sound, and touch
Trance-like and altered states of consciousness
Disrupted sleep pattern (periods of insomnia or oversleeping)
Loss of appetite or overeating
Bliss, feelings of infinite love and universal connectivity, transcendent awareness
Etc.
NOW, CAN ANYONE GUESS; PRECISELY, WHERE MY SPINE IS SHATTERED?
Miss Confessionals
I found this site and figured I would try it out. A lot like Fetlife but that's cool I suppose.

I'm of course looking for subs. All that information can be found out by talking to me or checking out my profile. Smile
MZMUSE
HONESTLY...
Posted June 5, 2012 by MZMUSE
5/29/12 at 4:50 PM:

FIRST, I TELL YOU THESE THINGS... TO BE TRUTHFUL OF MY SITUATION...NOT TO FOCUS ON THE NEGATIVE NOR PLEAD FOR A PITY PARTY... FACTS ARE FACTS.

FUNNY; HOW SO MANY THINGS START OUT, AS MERELY TEMPORARY... ONLY TO EVOLVE INTO OUR DAILY ROUTINE...
ANYWAY, MY PHYSICIAN & MY MEDS; BOTH PROHIBIT MY DRIVING. WHILE MY PHYSICAL LOCATION & MY LACK OF FINANCES KEEPS ME FROM BUYING ANYTHING ON-LINE OR OFF .. SO BASICALLY, I'M HERE ALONE... EVERY HOUR OF EVERYDAY OF EVERY WEEK & MONTH; EXCEPT FOR MY MONTHLY TRIP TO THE DOCTOR & MY BIANNUAL VISIT TO THE HOSPITAL FOR CORTISONE SHOTS TO BE INJECTED INTO MY SPINE & SI JOINTS... I SHOULD GO 4 TIMES A YEAR... BUT, SINCE NO ONE HAS MY BACK... I CONSTANTLY FALL THROUGH THE CRACKS...

OTHERWISE... THIS IS NOT MY HOME; IT'S JUST A HOUSE... THAT I'VE REDESIGNED ON A SHOESTRING BUDGET... YES, I POURED MY HEART & SOUL INTO IT... BUT, JUST LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE... IF PEOPLE DO NO RESPECT OUR EFFORTS... ANY ENDEAVOR EASILY BECOMES A PRISON.

FRANKLY, I HAD HOPED TO HAVE SOME SORT OF SMALL WEB BASED BUSINESS BY NOW... SOME PERFECT EXCUSE TO TRAVEL, SHOP & REDESIGN A NEW LIFE FOR MYSELF... AWAY FROM THIS WHITE TRASH BLUE COLLAR BACKWATER TOWN. INSTEAD, I'M STILL HERE TRYING TO GET SOME ASPECT OF MY LIFE; MOVING FORWARD IN A TRULY POSITIVE DIRECTION. BUT, AS FOR A REAL HOME... I'VE NEVER HAD ONE.

BUT... I'D CERTAINLY LOVE TO CREATE ONE FOR MYSELF, ALONG WITH ALL THOSE OTHERS, WHO FREELY CHOOSE TO LIVE & LOVE, AS I DO.

PEACE & BE WELL,

SINcerely,

Me



"Mz. M

I have been thinking. It seems that you are a recluse stuck in your home and in a horrible family situation, in essence isolated. The distance and your medical condition make it almost impossible for there to be a meaningful relationship as you need constant help, physically, emotionally, and medically, to function.

So what I can gather from our emails is that you are looking for someone to totally take on your care, financial backing, and constant attention to your needs. I do not think I am up to this.

It seems almost more than anyone person can assume. Once you leave the house for a trip I fear that you would be unable to return and your children taken from you. I don't know if I can live with this type of burden."

DID I ASK YOU TOO?

"That was the impression I got."

NO, THAT'S THE IMPRESSION, THAT YOU DECIDED TO TAKE AWAY WITH YOU.

I MERELY TOLD YOU THE TRUTH OF MY SITUATION.

YOU LET YOUR OWN PRECONCEPTIONS & FEAR DO THE REST.

MEANWHILE, I'VE NEVER ASKED you NOR ANYONE ELSE TO TRADE PLACES WITH ME...I MERELY SEEK A REAL PARTNER, WHO'S MAN ENOUGH TO HANDLE THE TRUTH... SOMEONE, WITH A SERIOUS SPINE OF HIS OWN.
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